Monday, 15 October 2007

I am NoT different but I am ExTraOrdiNaRy

1_1 Different has a negative meaning compare with extraordinary which has both positive and negative meanings.

If u find the synonym of extraordinary u could find strange, odd, unusual, unexpected, astonishing, surprising, amazing, bizarre. Because my Mood is so wonderful now so it is better not to concern about the negative meaning.

I know everyone has their Plus and Minus on their life and I don’t want to count every of it. I just want to say that I often feel different from other in every case, sometime I like to take a deep view for a small things and I really curious to know the philosophy.

I interesting about general issues, such us World War, Art of Management, Islam in general view, simple issues of economics, education and some of something that I forget what that was….

It is very rare to find someone who want to talk about that except my dad, absolutely I cant discuss such matter to my best friends, we know that it is not good idea, that’s why they often just smile and politely change the topics- so I avoid to do that. Ok whatever at least now I already have many books to be my friends. It really helps me.

Stop complaining

Picture_67Today I have a conversation with my dad…. It all about life, since I was a little gal, I used to discuss many thing with him and it set my mind to think widely and generally even much of my dad advice or proverb that I already heard it so long time ago just popular now, I mean some people say that proverb in a seminars or discussion.

I know I have to be grateful enough for all I have got……..

-This writing will change to be more boring if I tell u what happen to me before this month….. then it is better to tell that story in other time-

Today is the second of Idul Fitri 1428 H, and today is my Off day. I slept so comfort last night because I was so tired. When I wake up in this morning I have a discussion with my dad, I told him about my dream and planning to be success through my current Job and Study. As usual I often complaining about many things that I assume I cant get it.

This topic often makes my dad bore, because he already gives me many story or much knowledge how NOT to feel that way.

But now I try to understand by keep attention to every sentence that He said….

We can’t complaint to Allah by asking Why we got some problem whether big or small, because we are here for sure to solve that with all our competence and intelligence.

Allah creates us as a HUMAN who has intelligence and understanding that’s why Allah gives us so many complex cases to be solved. Related to the proverb that saying “Allah will not send a problem that more than our competence “ it is all true !!! My Dad asked me to believe that, and insist me to use my intelligence and understanding to solve it. It is wrong if we only spend this life by a plain life, it is not that simple and we will feel bore easily and we can’t say that was a life!! We are not an Angel ( malaikat ) who always pray and just do straightaway what Allah said, unmistakably. Aren’t we???

And u know my Dad is so knowledgeable it is because he read so many books with many category of subject and it mixed up in his intelligence and bring such a high sense of understanding.

He is not only said above topic in Muslim approaching (outlook) but also he mixed it with Sun Tzu story. This what I really like about him, He often tell a story, it easier for me to understand the Messages of the topic and he combine by telling the implication of today topic. Actually Sun Tzu is really popular in management subject lately it is because people learn His sense of leadership, but you will not find – I mean it is very rare- what my Dad always tell to me compare in management books.

He gives me a simple question and let me think by my own intelligence and understanding about it.

How Sun Tzu manage his expedition? Hehehe ok Dad I ll learn more about all of what u have told , tks so much.

Sunday, 14 October 2007

all gone

these day i feel my life is so far, lost, blind. no direction… once i broke the rule, and everything changing so fast even i didnt realize…. keep hopping sOMeONe’s help but it is so worng!!! because it should be me who run my own life,nobody could come to help…. i got trap in my own dreams…..