I am NoT different but I am ExTraOrdiNaRy

Different has a negative meaning compare with extraordinary which has both positive and negative meanings.

If u find the synonym of extraordinary u could find strange, odd, unusual, unexpected, astonishing, surprising, amazing, bizarre. Because my Mood is so wonderful now so it is better not to concern about the negative meaning.

I know everyone has their Plus and Minus on their life and I don’t want to count every of it. I just want to say that I often feel different from other in every case, sometime I like to take a deep view for a small things and I really curious to know the philosophy.

I interesting about general issues, such us World War, Art of Management, Islam in general view, simple issues of economics, education and some of something that I forget what that was….

It is very rare to find someone who want to talk about that except my dad, absolutely I cant discuss such matter to my best friends, we know that it is not good idea, that’s why they often just smile and politely change the topics- so I avoid to do that. Ok whatever at least now I already have many books to be my friends. It really helps me.

Stop complaining

Today I have a conversation with my dad…. It all about life, since I was a little gal, I used to discuss many thing with him and it set my mind to think widely and generally even much of my dad advice or proverb that I already heard it so long time ago just popular now, I mean some people say that proverb in a seminars or discussion.

I know I have to be grateful enough for all I have got……..

-This writing will change to be more boring if I tell u what happen to me before this month….. then it is better to tell that story in other time-

Today is the second of Idul Fitri 1428 H, and today is my Off day. I slept so comfort last night because I was so tired. When I wake up in this morning I have a discussion with my dad, I told him about my dream and planning to be success through my current Job and Study. As usual I often complaining about many things that I assume I cant get it.

This topic often makes my dad bore, because he already gives me many story or much knowledge how NOT to feel that way.

But now I try to understand by keep attention to every sentence that He said….

We can’t complaint to Allah by asking Why we got some problem whether big or small, because we are here for sure to solve that with all our competence and intelligence.

Allah creates us as a HUMAN who has intelligence and understanding that’s why Allah gives us so many complex cases to be solved. Related to the proverb that saying “Allah will not send a problem that more than our competence “ it is all true !!! My Dad asked me to believe that, and insist me to use my intelligence and understanding to solve it. It is wrong if we only spend this life by a plain life, it is not that simple and we will feel bore easily and we can’t say that was a life!! We are not an Angel ( malaikat ) who always pray and just do straightaway what Allah said, unmistakably. Aren’t we???

And u know my Dad is so knowledgeable it is because he read so many books with many category of subject and it mixed up in his intelligence and bring such a high sense of understanding.

He is not only said above topic in Muslim approaching (outlook) but also he mixed it with Sun Tzu story. This what I really like about him, He often tell a story, it easier for me to understand the Messages of the topic and he combine by telling the implication of today topic. Actually Sun Tzu is really popular in management subject lately it is because people learn His sense of leadership, but you will not find – I mean it is very rare- what my Dad always tell to me compare in management books.

He gives me a simple question and let me think by my own intelligence and understanding about it.

How Sun Tzu manage his expedition? Hehehe ok Dad I ll learn more about all of what u have told , tks so much.

all gone

these day i feel my life is so far, lost, blind. no direction… once i broke the rule, and everything changing so fast even i didnt realize…. keep hopping sOMeONe’s help but it is so worng!!! because it should be me who run my own life,nobody could come to help…. i got trap in my own dreams…..

Why I doubt u

Friday, September 28th, 2007

Why I doubt u


At the time YOU ask me to trust




Why I feel not enough


At the time YOU give me much




Why I betray u


At the time YOU give me a deal




Why I keep complaint


At the time YOU give me care




Why I keep do that!!!!!!!


At the time YOU be so patient




Why I beg a pardon


At the time YOU have gone and runaway




Why all of this comes to my life…..


At the time I try to mange my life…




Why I try to ask once more chance


At the time we all know that opportunity don’t comes twice




Why all of this has to be answered


At the time all of this is Nothing




Why I have to be confused


At the time YOU actually Loves me so much




Why I have to stop this writing


At the time the reminder gives a sign














NB :


TRUST and HOPE just dedicated to YOU


LOVE in the Name of YOU

other version Legally Blonde

was born normaly with pirde….
-every parents thought that their children are perfect and take so much expectation on it-
with a beautiful name, pleasure heart and also have a peacefull smile….
talk active and have high confident in every case….
popular and famous…

all said that i am, but i m not sure…..
i m not afford it or i dont want to try hard to reach it

wake up gal!!!! Let show the world that u are alive!!!

i will and i can…. let see

monday, second of sept07

today i wake up a bit late…..fell so sleepy…. even i forget what time should be arrived at d office… then i get rush to call my friend and ask my schedule for today "monday". she said 8 o’clock.. oh gosh actually i wish 8.30

spend about 5 min more hugging my pillow and dream about my lovee… then straight away to the bathroom and take a shower.. accidentialy find Cosmopolitant b’day edition and bring it - actually i m about to buy it but so expensive… and thank God i have a Wonderfull elder sister, she already bought it.

take a breakfast then go to office with SPIRIT to be success- everything should be prepared and it means we have to start from below then learn more to grow up and reach the hill

i love jakarta on monday morning… it is so peacfull and freshhhhhh u can find many people waliking and running on the main street of sudirman to thamrin - at least there is an imporvement of my nasionality mind, i ll tell more about it in differnet subject

finaly i reach office and go to 7th floor and take all my stuff and do my work…. sit beside my friend and infront of me there are 2 seniors…. she asked me to arrange an order for lunch, we order Hokahoka bento - but honestly i dont list my order because i bring my own lunch( my favo food).

and the afternoon is passed by….. just like another boring lazy monday nothing special for today. working and in the same time see the magazine that have so many eye catching picture

until….. i see my mobile phone light is blinking… i keept it silent n no vibration so to recognize a call by a bliking light

just wonder who called me….. he is Mas adit and Reychan my lovely friends they are asking me to join them having weekend.

directly go to office lobby and his car already waiting for me there and they bring me to blitz megaplx…… hmmm what a wonderfull monday…..

miss u all my best friends…… we spent so many great neverending happiness when we were on high school dont we?

thanks to Mas adit pk and Reychan

madness

Is it the life that I must run

Is this the wheater that I must feel

Is this the love that I must get

Is this all that I must face

How can life was too hard for me

How can wheater was not friendly

How can love was so far

How can life is totally not the same as my dream.

Hope it just for this moment, to reach and achive what I should get later

Everytime I feel lonely my mind ready to bulid a beautiful dream that i can’t stop.

Hope it will be true, and I just have some bad dream or nightmare now.

Everything reverse to be beautiful forever

It is fake tough!

It just make me sad then !!

It hurts me,really!!!

It is F*** !!!!

something or even nothing

my mind keep dreaming about something that seems so far………..

my mind blowing into beautiful dream………

my face curious how to be happy……

my face smiling but my heart crying……..

i love my dream which built many hopes……..

i hate my dream which i love so much……….